oceana

Stolen from many people.

Sum up your former/current fandoms in a few sentences, as if they were human beings. Then let others guess "who" you're writing to.

1) You were my first relationship, well, the first "serious" one. In the beginning, I was only curious about you, but the more I found out, the deeper I fell in love. And what a love it was: I thought about you all day, talked about you, tried everything one could think of with you. I couldn't imagine ever loving anyone else. That was then, and times have changed. We don't see each other anymore, I can honestly say that I'm over you. But sometimes, out of the blue, I am reminded of you, and in these moments I can still feel traces of our love.
= Buffy, guessed by lunardreamed and webbgirl
Yes, I've only been in fandom five years (though I've been a fan longer), and it was Buffy who introduced me to fanfic, slash and fandom.

2) You were my shiny new love, you were MADE for me and I was crazy about you from the very first moment I laid eyes on you. Then they took you from me, sudden and much too soon. My wounds are fresh, and losing you still makes me cry.
= Smith, as guessed by ana_grrl.
I never knew it was possible to fall so hard so fast, and get your heart broken in almost the same moment.

3) I love you, I am in love with you. You have some strange ideas, and at the beginning, because of my past experiences, I didn't fully trust you. But even when you did things that I would have left anyone else for, you never disappointed me. Everything about you is perfect and I would marry you, if it wasn't for your friends, who are mostly lunatics.
= NCIS, guessed by webbgirl.
With Kate gone, Madam Director and the pornstache, you'd think I'd be far gone, but I've learned to trust the love so I stick around. I just wish the fanfic were better.

4) We had a long and rather intense affair, but there are only a few really memorable moments. Your charms are so obvious and yet there is so much more behind your pretty surface, so much that I cannot stop thinking about even now, after we have moved apart. I can't believe some of the things you made me do!We may have moved apart and don't see each other much anymore, but when we do, the love and passion between us is still as hot as it was before.
= Highlander, guessed by lunardreamed
The few memorable moments are the Methos episodes, almost the only ones I keep coming back to. And the things HL made me do? Well, I fell for a guy who's wearing shoulder thingies and red(!) pants and then lends them to his boyfriend. Among other unspeakable fashion sins. Oh, Duncan, I love you, and I'm still waiting for the night in Paris where you take me out for dinner and dancing. Sweet sweet dreams...

5) You are an affair that I'm almost a bit ashamed of. Or rather, I feel I should be, but I feel so much for you that I can't. We were always more about the sex than about every day life. I don't call you anymore, but when we meet each other on the street, I always feel like coming home.
=The Sentinel, guessed by webbgirl
I love it. I know it's not a good show, and I try not to mention that I've watched all its episodes more than once in certain company. But watching Jim and Blair play House never fails to make me happy.

6) You were my childhood friend, an innocent love long before I knew what relationships were all about. When we met years later, we tumbled into bed as if it were always meant to be. I still think you are wonderful and I love remembering you, but if we are honest with each other, we were never meant to last.
= Due South
When I watched Due South for the first time, I was young and innocent and had no slashy thoughts at all. Okay, I may have had some innocent dreams about a certain mountie, but really really innocent. Then, after I had discovered slash, it took a while until I thought, hey, there could be Due South slash. Let's check it out. RayV/Fraser never worked for me, too innocent my relationship with them. Ray K I got to know only then, and we got a long really well, but somehow we always lived in different worlds and I never really found my way into the fandom.

7) I'm a bit afraid of you. You are kinky and dark and so complex, I'm afraid I'll get lost in you, eaten up by the crazy people you hang out with, drawn into your world of twilight and mystery. But I cannot resist you completely, so I keep coming back for little or long tastes, that leave me feeling good and sated, and a little bit dirty and guilty.
= Harry Potter
I like my Harry Potter dark. I don't think there's any fandom where I've read more dark fics, end of the world, good against bad with the bad winning so often. Kink, too, but I read a lot of that in XF as well. I've seen a lot of crazy people in HP, seriously crazy, so I stayed in my not-so-little Harry/Snape corner, where I like to take long (so many HP epics!) holidays from time to time, until I get scared off by yet another WIP that isn't finished after four years.

8) You are it. The one and only. I never get tired of you, even though there are some sides that I chose to ignore and won't take a second look at. You are not even perfect, far from it, but if I had to decide, it'd be you, only you, for the rest of my life. Oh, who am I trying to kid, I am already married to you. I love you.
= Stargate, as guessed by ana_grrl.
Oh, come on, who else am I married to?

9) We started out as friends and we still haven't progressed far. We made out a couple of times, but we both know it wasn't perfect. We also know that the moment will come, if we just keep trying. Meanwhile, I'm falling for you more and more every time we meet.
= Numb3rs, guessed by webbgirl
The show keeps getting better and better, but I still haven't found much fanfic that interests me. We will keep trying, though. ;-)

10) You are the partner my parents never wanted me to have. You stand for everything I am against, and still I know that I cannot resist you. Why am I so easy when it comes to you? Why am I so forgiving? Because underneath your macho-tough guy attitude, you are smart and charming and very sexy. You are too occupied with yourself to sleep with me, but I don't mind. I just like watching you and being around you. And dreaming about having sex with you.
= The Unit, or The Bob! Show, guessed by webbgirl
I don't sleep with the Unit= I don't read fanfic (I don't think there is much fanfic for the Bob! show). I'm happy with just watching the show and making up my own little stories in my head.

BtVS/Angel
Buffy was my first online fandom. I used to know all the important URLs by heart, and there were many important ones.
Now I only have a few meagre bookmarks left from what once was my biggest fannish love.
*sniff*
It's a bit sad.

( Buffy Links )

( Jeremiah Links )

( MacGyver Links )

I had a very weird experience today. I wrote down my name, and I couldn't believe that this was my name!
It looked utterly strange and unfamiliar, as if it belonged to someone else.
Am I really the person with that name? What do people think when they meet me and hear my name?
A name is something so personal, and somehow it always says something about the person it belongs to. We are already prejudiced when we meet someone wiht a name we have heard before: we compare them to the other person we know with the same name, at least subconsciously.
My real name isn't very common, and I often meet people who don't know the name at all. I wonder what they think about me, judging me purely by my name. I wonder if my life had been different if I had had another name.
And why - all of a sudden - does my name feel strange to me? It's like I know that it is my name, but it still feels like it belongs to another person.
It's official, I'm losing my mind.

( So I watched more Buffy )

Yep, that's right. I watched Buffy.
Between the vid I watched yesterday and the great Buffy fic I read today (spoilers for the end of the series, as if anyone hasn't seen it yet), my Buffy love reawakened. (is that a word? sounds weird)

So I sat down and watched the very first episode, and oh my god!
( Not very deep thoughts about Buffy 1x01: Welcome to the Hellmouth )

Great show. I feel all nostalgic now. But between catching up with Farscape, watching Oz and my Highlander addiction that is still going strong, I doubt I'll have time to watch more Buffy. We'll see.