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I desperately want to write about the two Stargates and BSG, but if I do it now, there is no way I can discuss things, not with tomorrow's schedule- Well, I could skip sleep tonight, but again, tomorrow would be so much easier if I didn't. So I'll write tomorrow night, and try to answer all the old comments now.
I'd like all of you to know that I'm still interested, and I still care, and every comment makes me happy, because it gives me the feeling that some people still read this journal. I don't feel like I've "produced" anything that merits interest lately, but I'm trying to change that. There are all these thoughts in my head, fannish thoughts, thoughts about life, mine and life in general, so many things I want to share and discuss, and I will, as soon as I get my life back in line. I miss reading fanfic, and I miss discussing the episodes, and even more I miss being able to read your ljs and to see that you are all (hopefully) doing fine.
It's just that there are other things that have to come first. I'm trying to change my life, as much as I can change it. I'm trying to lose a serious amount of weight, and I'm trying to get through my exams. Even if I don't care about the subject anymore, I've started it, and this is the one thing in life I really really need to finish. After the exams, we'll see. Maybe I'll pack my things, move somewhere not here and look for some job that pays rent, food and internet. Maybe not. It doesn't really matter, because the exams are what comes first right now. The exams, and trying to figure out what I want from life. I am 27, and it seems to be just running away, one day after the other, all these dreams and plans in my head, and none of them get realized, because life keeps running. I know it won't stop, but maybe I will find a way to keep up, and what I'm doing right now is not it.
I'd love to flee to lj, but I cannot let myself do this. That doesn't mean that I won't be here anymore, it just means that I have to plan ahead, and that I have to keep myself from staying up all night to post and read, or from ljing all day on a day like tomorrow, where I really really have to study. I managed to do this two years ago, when I was in the middle of the other really important exams, and I'll manage now. I just had to start, which I did, last week. And now I'll slowly try to reintegrate my lj time into my new, improved life, without screwing up my new improved life's schedule.
Maybe I should make announcements, like
That way, at least I am obliged to post, and won't stay silent because I think that no one cares to hear what I think, three days after the episodes aired. If no one cares, I'll find out, won't I?
Anyway, enough with the excuses and the whining.
I am madly in love with Starbuck, but if Lee gets anymore lickable...
*loses train of thought*
*imagines Lee*
*imagines wet Lee*
*imagines more Lee*
Uhm, yes, that's what I wanted to say.
*Local time. My local.
I'd like all of you to know that I'm still interested, and I still care, and every comment makes me happy, because it gives me the feeling that some people still read this journal. I don't feel like I've "produced" anything that merits interest lately, but I'm trying to change that. There are all these thoughts in my head, fannish thoughts, thoughts about life, mine and life in general, so many things I want to share and discuss, and I will, as soon as I get my life back in line. I miss reading fanfic, and I miss discussing the episodes, and even more I miss being able to read your ljs and to see that you are all (hopefully) doing fine.
It's just that there are other things that have to come first. I'm trying to change my life, as much as I can change it. I'm trying to lose a serious amount of weight, and I'm trying to get through my exams. Even if I don't care about the subject anymore, I've started it, and this is the one thing in life I really really need to finish. After the exams, we'll see. Maybe I'll pack my things, move somewhere not here and look for some job that pays rent, food and internet. Maybe not. It doesn't really matter, because the exams are what comes first right now. The exams, and trying to figure out what I want from life. I am 27, and it seems to be just running away, one day after the other, all these dreams and plans in my head, and none of them get realized, because life keeps running. I know it won't stop, but maybe I will find a way to keep up, and what I'm doing right now is not it.
I'd love to flee to lj, but I cannot let myself do this. That doesn't mean that I won't be here anymore, it just means that I have to plan ahead, and that I have to keep myself from staying up all night to post and read, or from ljing all day on a day like tomorrow, where I really really have to study. I managed to do this two years ago, when I was in the middle of the other really important exams, and I'll manage now. I just had to start, which I did, last week. And now I'll slowly try to reintegrate my lj time into my new, improved life, without screwing up my new improved life's schedule.
Maybe I should make announcements, like
"Stargate Atlantis-The New Episode!
Discussion in Oceana's LJ, tomorrow night at nine!*
Don't miss it, there will be naked, dancing men, and gay sex! For free!"
Discussion in Oceana's LJ, tomorrow night at nine!*
Don't miss it, there will be naked, dancing men, and gay sex! For free!"
That way, at least I am obliged to post, and won't stay silent because I think that no one cares to hear what I think, three days after the episodes aired. If no one cares, I'll find out, won't I?
Anyway, enough with the excuses and the whining.
I am madly in love with Starbuck, but if Lee gets anymore lickable...
*loses train of thought*
*imagines Lee*
*imagines wet Lee*
*imagines more Lee*
Uhm, yes, that's what I wanted to say.
*Local time. My local.
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