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I'm still not sure if Gibbs and Tony are gay (bi, have some experience with men, whatever), or if it would be the first time for them, when they get together.
But I think I'm getting closer, because I just figured something out about Gibbs and Ducky.
Ducky and Gibbs seem to be very close most of the time. Gibbs touches him a lot, and Ducky calls him Jethro. I doubt any of the other would dare to do so.
What is the connection between them? I know there's Ducky/Gibbs slash, but it doesn't convince me. I don't think they are sleeping with each other now, and I find it highly unlikely that they ever did it in the past.
So, my theory is this:
Gibbs is gay. He left the Marines when he found out, because in his world, at least the way it was then, being gay and being a Marine wasn't compatible. He has a high respect for the Marines and the Navy, and he felt that it wouldn't be right - at least not for him - to be gay and be an officer.
(Gibbs is weird that way.)
Now his view of these things has changed, but back then, that's how it was. Basically, he wasn't happy that being gay forced him to leave the Marines, and he blamed it on his homosexuality. He had issues.
So, when he first became an NCIS agent, he was still somewhat in denial. He thought he could somehow stop being gay (bisexual, whatever. sleeping with men is what I mean)
Ducky was the one who saw through it all. He saw Gibbs as the young officer who left the Marines, the one thing he always wanted to do, because of his sexuality, only to deny his sexual preferences afterwards, as if he wanted to punish himself for being gay. I imagine that this Gibbs was a rather angry and impatient person, and he didn't have many friends inside NCIS.
I don't know if Ducky is gay, I don't care. But I am convinced that Ducky has seen everything there is too see, and that that fact that a colleague of him is gay is the last thing that could shock him.
So Ducky saw this young Gibbs, probably confronted him about being gay one day, in one of his off-hand comments, got pushed away again and again, until Gibbs finally admitted to Ducky what he couldn't admit to himself.
That he likes sleeping with men.
And Ducky made it perfectly clear that there is nothing wrong with that, that Gibbs shouldn't go around marrying every red head in his desperate effort to prove his own heterosexuality.
Gibbs didn't listen of course, because even though he thought that Ducky was probably right, the rules that apply to everyone have never applied to Jethro Gibbs. Everyone around him can go and have gay orgies as much as they want, but Gibbs always tries to be perfect, and somewhere in his mind, being gay is being very much not perfect.
Nonetheless, the admission and Ducky easy acceptance of it, gave them a connection. Gibbs is almost sorry that he fails Ducky, that he can't follow the advice he knows to be right.
I think that Ducky is the one person Gibbs could open up to. I'm not sure he does open up to him, but there must have been times when he did. Back when he first came to work for the NCIS, angry and confused, blaming everyone else for his failure in the Marines.
Because I can see these evenings, when the desire became too much for Gibbs, when he went got drunk, went out to a gay bar, a club, fucked some boy in the back rooms, got a hand job in the bathroom.
Repressed even there, because he would never bottom, never suck cock, cause in his eyes, that would be the final step, the point of no return, but he would want to, oh, he would want to.
And then he would go to Ducky's place, ashamed and angry because he didn't manage to be straight, but he didn't dare to be properly gay either, and Ducky would give him the good Whisky and tell him the story about the pub in Ireland where he had bought it, and how he tried to order a coffee in London that one time and whatever else came to his mind.
Ducky gave him a place where the world as Jethro Gibbs knew it stopped for a while, where he could just be, straight or gay or something/nothing/everything.
This was a long time ago, and things have settled down. Gibbs, after three failed marriages, has accepted that he likes men. He has also accepted that he will never have a relationship with a man, because that would still be wrong. But if the desire gets too strong, he can go to a bar and find someone willing to satisfy his needs for an evening, and he won't go to hell for it.
And of he runs by Ducky for a drink and stories about India and Japan afterwards, it's not because he is desperate and agry, but he feels settled, finally at piece with himself.
But I think I'm getting closer, because I just figured something out about Gibbs and Ducky.
Ducky and Gibbs seem to be very close most of the time. Gibbs touches him a lot, and Ducky calls him Jethro. I doubt any of the other would dare to do so.
What is the connection between them? I know there's Ducky/Gibbs slash, but it doesn't convince me. I don't think they are sleeping with each other now, and I find it highly unlikely that they ever did it in the past.
So, my theory is this:
Gibbs is gay. He left the Marines when he found out, because in his world, at least the way it was then, being gay and being a Marine wasn't compatible. He has a high respect for the Marines and the Navy, and he felt that it wouldn't be right - at least not for him - to be gay and be an officer.
(Gibbs is weird that way.)
Now his view of these things has changed, but back then, that's how it was. Basically, he wasn't happy that being gay forced him to leave the Marines, and he blamed it on his homosexuality. He had issues.
So, when he first became an NCIS agent, he was still somewhat in denial. He thought he could somehow stop being gay (bisexual, whatever. sleeping with men is what I mean)
Ducky was the one who saw through it all. He saw Gibbs as the young officer who left the Marines, the one thing he always wanted to do, because of his sexuality, only to deny his sexual preferences afterwards, as if he wanted to punish himself for being gay. I imagine that this Gibbs was a rather angry and impatient person, and he didn't have many friends inside NCIS.
I don't know if Ducky is gay, I don't care. But I am convinced that Ducky has seen everything there is too see, and that that fact that a colleague of him is gay is the last thing that could shock him.
So Ducky saw this young Gibbs, probably confronted him about being gay one day, in one of his off-hand comments, got pushed away again and again, until Gibbs finally admitted to Ducky what he couldn't admit to himself.
That he likes sleeping with men.
And Ducky made it perfectly clear that there is nothing wrong with that, that Gibbs shouldn't go around marrying every red head in his desperate effort to prove his own heterosexuality.
Gibbs didn't listen of course, because even though he thought that Ducky was probably right, the rules that apply to everyone have never applied to Jethro Gibbs. Everyone around him can go and have gay orgies as much as they want, but Gibbs always tries to be perfect, and somewhere in his mind, being gay is being very much not perfect.
Nonetheless, the admission and Ducky easy acceptance of it, gave them a connection. Gibbs is almost sorry that he fails Ducky, that he can't follow the advice he knows to be right.
I think that Ducky is the one person Gibbs could open up to. I'm not sure he does open up to him, but there must have been times when he did. Back when he first came to work for the NCIS, angry and confused, blaming everyone else for his failure in the Marines.
Because I can see these evenings, when the desire became too much for Gibbs, when he went got drunk, went out to a gay bar, a club, fucked some boy in the back rooms, got a hand job in the bathroom.
Repressed even there, because he would never bottom, never suck cock, cause in his eyes, that would be the final step, the point of no return, but he would want to, oh, he would want to.
And then he would go to Ducky's place, ashamed and angry because he didn't manage to be straight, but he didn't dare to be properly gay either, and Ducky would give him the good Whisky and tell him the story about the pub in Ireland where he had bought it, and how he tried to order a coffee in London that one time and whatever else came to his mind.
Ducky gave him a place where the world as Jethro Gibbs knew it stopped for a while, where he could just be, straight or gay or something/nothing/everything.
This was a long time ago, and things have settled down. Gibbs, after three failed marriages, has accepted that he likes men. He has also accepted that he will never have a relationship with a man, because that would still be wrong. But if the desire gets too strong, he can go to a bar and find someone willing to satisfy his needs for an evening, and he won't go to hell for it.
And of he runs by Ducky for a drink and stories about India and Japan afterwards, it's not because he is desperate and agry, but he feels settled, finally at piece with himself.
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