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I feel very weird today, as if something happened, but i can't remember what it was or if it was important. It is very unsettling.
As a consequence, I don't feel very talkative. I have no desire to go out this weekend ot to even call people. And I certainly have no desire to comment on anything Robert Cooper has said, or on most people's reactions.
It's as if I have talked myself empty: just thinking about Stargate tires me. I want to hide in my room with the wonderful Jack/Daniel fics I have on my HD, watch my DVDs until I can download the new ep, squee silently and ignore anyone elses thoughts and reviews. I'm not tired of Jack and Daniel, just thinking about them makes me feel all warm and tingly.
I just can't take anything even remotely meta.
Random slash thoughts:
- Sex against the wall sex scenes - one person pressed against the wall with his back to the other person - are almost never written in the POV of the bottom. Why?
- Considering the amount of Duncan/Methos fics in which they have sex under the shower, there are almost no shower photo manips. Actually, I haven't found one at all. Come to think of it, there are very few shower manips in any fandom.
I watched Counterfeit 1 + 2 today, and I am fascinated and scared by Duncan's determination to kill Horton. I can understand that he wants to kill him, but wanting to kill someone and actually doing it are two different things. There is no hesitation, no doubt in his movements. When he say "He's mine" to Joe, I knew immediately that Duncan wanted to kill Horton. I just couldn't really believe that he was doing it, walking after him with the intent to kill him.
And what Duncan does when he walks after Horton isn't a fight, it is almost an execution. Horton never stood a chance, and Duncan knows that. It's moments like these that remind me that all immortals are killers. They kill to survive, it's part of what they are. And even though we see Duncan kill in almost every ep, it is easy to forget that: because we don't usually see him kill mortals.
Why, I ask myself, is it okay when he kills immortals, but not when he kills a psychopath like Horton? I don't know.
Maybe because killing an immortal seems inevitable: it's the game, it will happen one day. But killing a mortal, without hesitation, without the excuse of self-defense...that's murder. And it scares me that seeing Duncan murder a mortal seems so right. It doesn't make me want him any less. Maybe even more so.
I should watch "Comes a Horseman", that'll make me feel better. After seeing Kronos, other people always seem so wonderfully normal and sane.
As a consequence, I don't feel very talkative. I have no desire to go out this weekend ot to even call people. And I certainly have no desire to comment on anything Robert Cooper has said, or on most people's reactions.
It's as if I have talked myself empty: just thinking about Stargate tires me. I want to hide in my room with the wonderful Jack/Daniel fics I have on my HD, watch my DVDs until I can download the new ep, squee silently and ignore anyone elses thoughts and reviews. I'm not tired of Jack and Daniel, just thinking about them makes me feel all warm and tingly.
I just can't take anything even remotely meta.
Random slash thoughts:
- Sex against the wall sex scenes - one person pressed against the wall with his back to the other person - are almost never written in the POV of the bottom. Why?
- Considering the amount of Duncan/Methos fics in which they have sex under the shower, there are almost no shower photo manips. Actually, I haven't found one at all. Come to think of it, there are very few shower manips in any fandom.
I watched Counterfeit 1 + 2 today, and I am fascinated and scared by Duncan's determination to kill Horton. I can understand that he wants to kill him, but wanting to kill someone and actually doing it are two different things. There is no hesitation, no doubt in his movements. When he say "He's mine" to Joe, I knew immediately that Duncan wanted to kill Horton. I just couldn't really believe that he was doing it, walking after him with the intent to kill him.
And what Duncan does when he walks after Horton isn't a fight, it is almost an execution. Horton never stood a chance, and Duncan knows that. It's moments like these that remind me that all immortals are killers. They kill to survive, it's part of what they are. And even though we see Duncan kill in almost every ep, it is easy to forget that: because we don't usually see him kill mortals.
Why, I ask myself, is it okay when he kills immortals, but not when he kills a psychopath like Horton? I don't know.
Maybe because killing an immortal seems inevitable: it's the game, it will happen one day. But killing a mortal, without hesitation, without the excuse of self-defense...that's murder. And it scares me that seeing Duncan murder a mortal seems so right. It doesn't make me want him any less. Maybe even more so.
I should watch "Comes a Horseman", that'll make me feel better. After seeing Kronos, other people always seem so wonderfully normal and sane.
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