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So I've been listening to some SGA podslash, not so much because I wanted to listen to SGA specifically, more because the otherwise completely wonderful Podfic archive only houses one (!) Jack/Daniel fic. Yes, it's by Komos, so I'm not complaining, but one Jack/Daniel fic? Is there no Jack/Daniel love out there any more?
*is sad*
I'd read one myself, but first, I don't have a recording device, and second, you wouldn't want to listen to podfic in my strange German accent. Though I figure it can't be worse than whatever (British? New Zealand?) accent pronounces "bed" as "beed", which confused the hell out of me.
Anyway. SGA.
Listening to SGA reminded me not only that John is very very gay, but also that I kind of love these characters. All of them, but most of all Rodney and John. So I though, even though I deliberately stopped watching at the beginning of season 4, I then got weak and watched it again, and then didn't, and then did again, and ended up somewhere around episode 4x12. Now, with my reawakened John and Rodney love, I though I'd catch up some more. I just finished watching 4x17.
The thing is, I cannot deny the John/Ronon love. I don't actually want to deny the John/Ronon love, because I always liked them together, but I don't know if I'm happy that it's so canon. He's like his dog! Following him around, having a bad temper and being told to obey, lying down on his back to get his belly rubbed... it's just... yes, I love John/Ronon, but I feel so bad for poor Rodney! And I really like Rodney! Also, I think he may be a little bit in love with Sheppard, so it's totally unfair that Sheppard has let Ronon attach himself to Sheppard's hip. On the other hand, I can understand John, because he is very very gay and Ronon is pretty, and since John is not actually sleeping with Rodney at the moment (what with Rodney having been otherwise engaged), and Ronon so very very willing... I mean, John is trying to tell him that it's not a good idea, and that really nothing can ever come out of this, but when Ronon kneels down and tells him to shut up and let him suck John's cock, what's John to do? You wouldn't argue with Ronon on a good day, and surely not when he is so determined to do something. So in the end, John lets Ronon suck him off in - what have to be - since none of them is willing to bring this thing into their quarters - random rooms around Atlantis and Ronon tells John to please fuck him in other random rooms around Atlantis, and John gets emotionally attached because that's what he does even though he really wants Rodney, and it's all just a matter of time until Rodney walks in on them and gets his heart broken.
*breathes*
I worry! I may lose sleep over this! I think I see a gray hair coming! Just, please tell me that there's a solution for this somewhere, in fic. I don't even ask you to record it as podfic for me, I'm totally willing to read. Please? How can I sleep when poor Rodney's heart is about to be broken any minute now? And how can I sleep when John is having hot, sweaty, manly sex with Ronon all over Atlantis and I can't watch/read about it?
If I ever go into therapy and tell my therapist why I'm so stressed, I'll say, no, it isn't the 78 page contract that I just got per email and that I will have to read any analize for the conference call that starts tomorrow morning, in, oh, nine hours or so, no, it's all these angsty gay couples on TV, angsty, the whole bunch of them! Some have disappeared (J/D), some don't even touch anymore (Gibbs/Tony) and the one who was always the easy - throw-them-into-a-room-together-and-wait-until-they-have-argued-themselves-into-having-sex-with-each-other, John and Rodney, has apparently decided to see other people!
Maybe I shouldn't go to therapy. Maybe I should watch more SGA. Maybe I should read that stupid contract.
*is stressed*
*watches more SGA*
*is sad*
I'd read one myself, but first, I don't have a recording device, and second, you wouldn't want to listen to podfic in my strange German accent. Though I figure it can't be worse than whatever (British? New Zealand?) accent pronounces "bed" as "beed", which confused the hell out of me.
Anyway. SGA.
Listening to SGA reminded me not only that John is very very gay, but also that I kind of love these characters. All of them, but most of all Rodney and John. So I though, even though I deliberately stopped watching at the beginning of season 4, I then got weak and watched it again, and then didn't, and then did again, and ended up somewhere around episode 4x12. Now, with my reawakened John and Rodney love, I though I'd catch up some more. I just finished watching 4x17.
The thing is, I cannot deny the John/Ronon love. I don't actually want to deny the John/Ronon love, because I always liked them together, but I don't know if I'm happy that it's so canon. He's like his dog! Following him around, having a bad temper and being told to obey, lying down on his back to get his belly rubbed... it's just... yes, I love John/Ronon, but I feel so bad for poor Rodney! And I really like Rodney! Also, I think he may be a little bit in love with Sheppard, so it's totally unfair that Sheppard has let Ronon attach himself to Sheppard's hip. On the other hand, I can understand John, because he is very very gay and Ronon is pretty, and since John is not actually sleeping with Rodney at the moment (what with Rodney having been otherwise engaged), and Ronon so very very willing... I mean, John is trying to tell him that it's not a good idea, and that really nothing can ever come out of this, but when Ronon kneels down and tells him to shut up and let him suck John's cock, what's John to do? You wouldn't argue with Ronon on a good day, and surely not when he is so determined to do something. So in the end, John lets Ronon suck him off in - what have to be - since none of them is willing to bring this thing into their quarters - random rooms around Atlantis and Ronon tells John to please fuck him in other random rooms around Atlantis, and John gets emotionally attached because that's what he does even though he really wants Rodney, and it's all just a matter of time until Rodney walks in on them and gets his heart broken.
*breathes*
I worry! I may lose sleep over this! I think I see a gray hair coming! Just, please tell me that there's a solution for this somewhere, in fic. I don't even ask you to record it as podfic for me, I'm totally willing to read. Please? How can I sleep when poor Rodney's heart is about to be broken any minute now? And how can I sleep when John is having hot, sweaty, manly sex with Ronon all over Atlantis and I can't watch/read about it?
If I ever go into therapy and tell my therapist why I'm so stressed, I'll say, no, it isn't the 78 page contract that I just got per email and that I will have to read any analize for the conference call that starts tomorrow morning, in, oh, nine hours or so, no, it's all these angsty gay couples on TV, angsty, the whole bunch of them! Some have disappeared (J/D), some don't even touch anymore (Gibbs/Tony) and the one who was always the easy - throw-them-into-a-room-together-and-wait-until-they-have-argued-themselves-into-having-sex-with-each-other, John and Rodney, has apparently decided to see other people!
Maybe I shouldn't go to therapy. Maybe I should watch more SGA. Maybe I should read that stupid contract.
*is stressed*
*watches more SGA*
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