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You know, I never seriously considered the possibility that I would like Doggett, and I'm surprised that after only four episodes, I'm beginning to more than just like him.
Maybe I should explain my history with the x-files.
When I was a child, I loved The Fall Guy, Simon&Simon, Miami Vice, The A-Team etc. but I was watching them at a time when I wasn't able to get information about the shows or to comprehend whatbeing a fan is about. I was eight or nine when I watched those shows. I liked them, I watched them, I may have had my fair share of "I'm the cool little sister" fantasies about them, but that was it. (remember, I was eight.)
Forward 8 Years
The X-Files premiered over here when I was 16 or so (jeez, I could have sworn I was younger.) A friend of mine who lives right around the corner told me about the show, and we watched it religiously every week (I remember it was shown on Thursdays and then later on Mondays), taking turns watching at her place and mine, and then being scared to death because we had to walk home through the darkness.
We both had a crush on Mulder, were Mulder/Scully shippers (at least I think we were, I remember we got all excited about the almost kiss in the movie). We bought merchandise and cut out those little pictures in the TV magazines. In short, we were fans, but without the fandom. At that time, I didn't know fandom existed.
XF was the only tv show I watched for seven years. I didn't watch TV, but I didn't miss a single episode of the x-files.
Then one day, Mulder got abducted, there were rumours that he had left the show in the magazines, and I just stopped watching. I'm not sure if the show went on hiatus or not, I just stopped watching.
Forward another couple of years
Then one day, I discovered the joys of the internet and that email and university weren't its only uses, discovered ebay and discovered fandom (Buffy). And I remembered that I had been in love with a show once, with The X-Files. So I bought seasons 1-7 on VHS (boy, was I stupid, I should have just bought a dvdv-player then), fell in love again, got the vague notion that XF fandom was a scary place and that many fans hated Cris Carter, decided not to get involved and for heaven's sake never to watch beyond season 7, afraid that this would ruin my love for the show. No Mulder, no X-Files, it was that simple for me.
And now, finally, I decided to give season 8 a try, and here I am, falling for Doggett of all people. Doggett, whom I know nothing about. To be honest, I'm not even sure if that's how you spell his name. But I loe the way he talks, and that he is so completely not Mulder. He seems so...reasonable. He actually listens to what Scully has to say. i'm not saying that Mulder didn't listen, but Doggett, he listens as if he is trying to learn something. He watches and sees what's there, in contrast to Mulder, who sometimes didn't even see what's right in front of him, because he was so focused on finding the things that shouldn't be there. Doggett just accepts the things. Batman attacks? Shoot him, and then go on.
He has a way of looking at things that I haven't really seen on the show before, and I'm not quite sure what to make of him just yet. I only know that I'm strangely attracted to him, and that he makes me feel secure. Well, not me so much as me projecting my fears into Scully (I forgot how scary that show could be). With Mulder, you could never be sure if he wouldn't wander off to look into the sky, or stop shooting because hey, batman, how fascinating, let's take a closer look. Okay, so that's not what he did, but he always gave me the feeling that this is what he could have done, or wanted to do. I'd rather be with Doggett were I to run into scary things that run around in the dark.
I don't really want to compare them, but it can't really be avoided. Mulder, because of my relationship with the x-files and the show being my first fannish love, will always have a special place in my heart. I'm aware that my opinion about Doggett might have been different if I had watched season 8 right after season 7. The differences would have been much more obvious to me, and I would probably have been a lot more negative towards NotMulder.
The way it is, I'm enjoying season 8 a lot. And please, he cut her open, pulled a big fat worm out of her and then carried her out of the bus, holding her all close and safe. How can you not like a man like that?
Maybe I should explain my history with the x-files.
When I was a child, I loved The Fall Guy, Simon&Simon, Miami Vice, The A-Team etc. but I was watching them at a time when I wasn't able to get information about the shows or to comprehend whatbeing a fan is about. I was eight or nine when I watched those shows. I liked them, I watched them, I may have had my fair share of "I'm the cool little sister" fantasies about them, but that was it. (remember, I was eight.)
Forward 8 Years
The X-Files premiered over here when I was 16 or so (jeez, I could have sworn I was younger.) A friend of mine who lives right around the corner told me about the show, and we watched it religiously every week (I remember it was shown on Thursdays and then later on Mondays), taking turns watching at her place and mine, and then being scared to death because we had to walk home through the darkness.
We both had a crush on Mulder, were Mulder/Scully shippers (at least I think we were, I remember we got all excited about the almost kiss in the movie). We bought merchandise and cut out those little pictures in the TV magazines. In short, we were fans, but without the fandom. At that time, I didn't know fandom existed.
XF was the only tv show I watched for seven years. I didn't watch TV, but I didn't miss a single episode of the x-files.
Then one day, Mulder got abducted, there were rumours that he had left the show in the magazines, and I just stopped watching. I'm not sure if the show went on hiatus or not, I just stopped watching.
Forward another couple of years
Then one day, I discovered the joys of the internet and that email and university weren't its only uses, discovered ebay and discovered fandom (Buffy). And I remembered that I had been in love with a show once, with The X-Files. So I bought seasons 1-7 on VHS (boy, was I stupid, I should have just bought a dvdv-player then), fell in love again, got the vague notion that XF fandom was a scary place and that many fans hated Cris Carter, decided not to get involved and for heaven's sake never to watch beyond season 7, afraid that this would ruin my love for the show. No Mulder, no X-Files, it was that simple for me.
And now, finally, I decided to give season 8 a try, and here I am, falling for Doggett of all people. Doggett, whom I know nothing about. To be honest, I'm not even sure if that's how you spell his name. But I loe the way he talks, and that he is so completely not Mulder. He seems so...reasonable. He actually listens to what Scully has to say. i'm not saying that Mulder didn't listen, but Doggett, he listens as if he is trying to learn something. He watches and sees what's there, in contrast to Mulder, who sometimes didn't even see what's right in front of him, because he was so focused on finding the things that shouldn't be there. Doggett just accepts the things. Batman attacks? Shoot him, and then go on.
He has a way of looking at things that I haven't really seen on the show before, and I'm not quite sure what to make of him just yet. I only know that I'm strangely attracted to him, and that he makes me feel secure. Well, not me so much as me projecting my fears into Scully (I forgot how scary that show could be). With Mulder, you could never be sure if he wouldn't wander off to look into the sky, or stop shooting because hey, batman, how fascinating, let's take a closer look. Okay, so that's not what he did, but he always gave me the feeling that this is what he could have done, or wanted to do. I'd rather be with Doggett were I to run into scary things that run around in the dark.
I don't really want to compare them, but it can't really be avoided. Mulder, because of my relationship with the x-files and the show being my first fannish love, will always have a special place in my heart. I'm aware that my opinion about Doggett might have been different if I had watched season 8 right after season 7. The differences would have been much more obvious to me, and I would probably have been a lot more negative towards NotMulder.
The way it is, I'm enjoying season 8 a lot. And please, he cut her open, pulled a big fat worm out of her and then carried her out of the bus, holding her all close and safe. How can you not like a man like that?
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