Dear NCIS Fandom,
I spent all of yesterday evening reading through your archives. I read stories in every pairing, yes, even Gibbs/Fornell (what was I thinking? no, what were
you thinking?), hoping to find something good (other than the few good authors I already know and who, btw, haven't written things in way too long).
Instead, I broke my brain.
Now I'm going through rec lists, and I have to ask you: PLEASE STOP RECOMMENDING STORIES THAT WILL BREAK MY ALREADY BROKEN BRAIN INTO EVEN SMALLER BRAIN PIECES!!!
Isn't it bad enough that these things are written? Do you have to go out of your way to point them out to me?
Please?
It's really not doing any of us any good if I read your recs and they suck and then my brain hurts and I have to run to the kitchen to find a spoon to spork out my eyes (< Alan Rickman>"Because it's dull, you twit. It'll hurt more..."< /Alan Rickman >), and then I can't even watch the show anymore, and if I can't watch the show anymore because I had to spork out my eyes from reading too much bad fic, maybe I, too, like you, dear fandom, will forget who these characters really are, and will start liking your badfic, and that would make me sad.
So please stop recommending these things.
While we are at it, I could make you a list of people who should start writing altogether. You know, so you wouldn't be tempted to recommend them anymore.
Just for the record:
- This: "watching as Tony’s eyes glazed over in fear, unshed tears threatening to spill onto his bruised cheeks." is not a sentence that should ever have crossed my or anyone else's eyes.
- "Moist cavern" is not a very appealing description for any part of Tony' body.
- Unless you are having a nervous breakdown like I had above (you try breaking your brain without having a nervous breakdown), punctuation is not optional. Neither is spelling. Not even if you are only posting a request at a ficfinding community. Gibbs would have your ass if you were writing reports like most people in you, dear fandom, write fic, lj entries, comments, feedback or their names. Though maybe that's what you are after.
- If you are remembering a fic where Gibbs gives Tony a headslap and Tony suffers a panic attack as a consequence, close your eyes and think of Spain. Or Mexico. Or Tony and Gibbs having sex in Spain. Or Mexico. Do NOT ask other people where to find it so you can read it again. Not that I don't understand the need to read weird badfic sometimes, but puhleeease, you are way beyond overdoing it.
(if anyone knows any fic where Gibbs impregnates Tony, drop me a mail. I can't ask at NCISficfind, I think they hate me over there. Though I think I only answered that one time with "We are sorry to inform you that you have been thrown out of fandom for putting terrible out-of-character ideas into fellow fannish minds. Do not pass go, take your badfic request and leave. A Marine will escort you out." Maybe I should have done that more often.)
- And I haven't even been reading ff.net!
I could go on, but I think I will spare us all the pain.
On the other hand, I recently found
thehoyden, an author whose fic is quite lovely, quiet, in character, not rushing things with love declarations and first time sex in the elevator. At least as far as I can judge from the two fics I have found. (Have you kept any other potentially good authors from me? You know I haven't been around much lately, I need you to tell me about things.
So, fandom, maybe there's hope for you yet. I won't give up, you know, I love you too much. You are, after all, the fandom to my favorite TV-show (which is currently running, don't make me decide between you and SG-1). And as such, I will stay with you until the bitter end. I just wish that you'd make the time until that end a little easier.
*sigh*
Love, always,
Oceana_
P.S.: I feel the need to point out that you are most welcome to unfriend me over this. Everyone has a right to their opinion, which includes you. I'm just seriously amused that someone should get offended by this. Unless it's someone whose fic I was quoting, but really, THAT sentence does not deserve compassion.