I've slept five hours tonight.
This is a good thing, because it means I went to bed at 2.30 and got up at 7.25, instead of going to bed at 3.30 and getting up at 6.50, like I usually do.I don't mean to, but I wake up at 6.50 like a clockwork on weekends. That it didn't do it today means is the first step on number 1 in my good intentions:
1) Get more sleep
I don't think I'll ever make it to seven hours, but I figure a regular six hours would be ok for starters. I'm just afraid that the constant lack of sleep will get to me one day. Plus, I'm 31 one, so I'm not getting any younger, and not sleeping definitely doesn't help stopping the aging process.
So, more sleep it is.
It'll also help me accomplish goal 2:
2) Lose weight
Because people who sleep a lot are less likely to be overweight. Also, because I can't eat at night if I sleep, and I often eat at night. Or wake up and eat. Which, I won't even get into it, but my eating has been messed up for years,and I'm going to change that as well. It's about time.
Losing weight fits nicely with goal 3:
3) Get back into shape
And I don't mean my body, though I've been unhappy with that for years (hence the losing weight thing). I mean the general me. I've been so caught up in my busy life, my career, my horse, and frankly, content with it right down to being single for years, that I've neglected myself a little bit. I'm still content to be single, but I notice that lately I'm not the one to turn heads any more if I walk into a bar, and frankly, I don't like it. Doesn't have anything to do with wanting a man/woman, it's just an ego thing. So, get a hair cut, get some regular manicures, treat myself to a massage now and then. Dress up, cause you don't own all those heels just for looking at them, girl. You gotta face that a 31 yers old body takes a bit more maintenance than a twenty year old one.
Oh, I'm so looking forward to this.
But, because of the road to hell and everything: baby steps. Baby steps that start with me finally starting to do the things that have been on my to do list since the beginning of the year (and longer). I just don't know where those first four months of 2009 went, but I know that if I don'T start now, it'll be 2010 and I'll still have the same things on my to do list that I do today.
So, just thought I'd let you know that soon you'll have the new, improved version of Oceana on your flist, Oceana 2.0 if you want.
Meanwhile, I'll be over here, cleaning the kitchen with my freshly manicured nails.
ETAOMG AM I HAVING A MIDLIFE CRISIS???? I can't believe I'm having a fucking midlife crisis!!!!